I am still getting the hang of giving up my old lifestyle which I realized was bringing me down more than anything. I had goals that were somewhat unattainable (I can’t dress like Kim K as I don’t have her budget and I can’t buy a house when I am knee deep in debt as it is) so I guess you could say when I decided to make the changes to try and live a simpler life, I got realistic.
I wanted too much, I wanted a full life but I don’t even enjoy busy weekends, I wanted things and lots of them, I just wanted, all the time. But with that want came envy, very little gratitude for the things I did have and mostly unhappiness inside.
There is a change in me that is almost indescribable. I am happier and lighter and wake up feeling so grateful every single morning. I have accepted myself completely, learn new things about myself daily and instead of pushing them aside and thinking “but I don’t want to be that kind of person” or “that’s a weird thing to like” I embrace it.
I see what is important now – it is like my eyes are open to a completely different world. Not having the latest “it” bag is not going to mean I am less of a lady. Having a cupboard full of food that is going to refuel my body is more important than having a cupboard full of clothes. Being at home with my husband and cat spending quality time together doing things we enjoy is just as fun as going out. I don’t view my life as boring anymore, it is meaningful. I spend so much more time doing things that are going to make a difference in my life or that I really and truly enjoy.
The present is my reality, I live in it, I learn, I enjoy, I participate, I feel. I also give so much more, I give more emotion and more time.
The simple things make me happier. A good smelling, clutter free home. A nice long bath. A good book. A laugh with my family. A nice message from a friend. A bit of alone time. A good spring clean. Plants and fresh flowers.
Living simply is really quite simple. It takes some evaluation and a realization.
I have let it all go, all the envy, trying to keep up, competing, self hate. I am just a simple girl now living my simple life and enjoying every second of it.