I have mentioned my fear about driving on the blog before, so yes, I am 25 turning 26 in a month from today and I don’t have a drivers license. This is because the thought of driving and anything to do with it makes my anxiety shoot through the roof.
I get into a car and I freeze, I start to panic and I cannot listen to instruction, I feel like there is too much to do at one time, too much to think about while trying to do those too many things at one time. But it is not just this, I don’t like being on the road. I have seen horrific accidents and have been involved in two (of course I was not the driver) but both of those times, while nobody was seriously injured, it was not the hubby’s fault. Somebody smashed into the back of us (on the day of his 21st party actually) and the second time it was a rainy day on the freeway and somebody decided to change lanes which knocked the car next to them which then pushed us into the barrier. This proved to me, twice, that I can be a perfect driver but can still potentially be in a critical accident and that scares the living daylights out of me.
Of course, there are the other things that freak me out too, driving at night, breaking down, hijacking, changing a tyre on my own and all the expenses that come with owning a car.
Having a drivers license and owning a car is something that I do want, not only to be independent but also to overcome this very huge obstacle in my life (I see it as sort of a challenge, but one that I am still preparing to take on). It is something I would like to do before I become a mother because I just know that once I become a mother, everything I have, time, money, strength, will be devoted to my child. It also sort of gives me a timeline because it really is something I am going to have to work through (amongst my many other things I am currently working on) and will require a lot of focus and almost “selfishness” because it is such a big thing for me.
Having said of all this, the thought of overcoming my fears of driving and all that comes with it, is something that is also exciting. I know that when I do this, I will feel as though I can do anything which will allow me to not shy away from whatever challenges may come.
I always get a step ahead of myself and think about what will be one of the most exciting things (after actually overcoming my fears and then passing my license) which will be buying a car and maintaining it. I have wanted a little Daihatsu Charade for ages and always look at the ones available on Gumtree so that I can see prices and what sort of condition the cars available are, this gets me all riled up and I start thinking about budgets and things but then I quickly get brought back down to reality where I realise I have a far way to go.
At least I know when the time comes, there are some really reasonable options out there and now Gumtree has launched a autos guide which I just know will come in handy for when I get to that stage. There so many valuable tips on car maintenance, a list of car dealers and of course, the buy and sell section. This is a handy link to keep for any car owner and just proves that Gumtree has got our back when it comes to life and all these bits and bobs like DIY car maintenance.
I would love to hear about your driving experiences, fears, what age you tackled the dreaded test and if you have purchased a car from Gumtree
*Disclaimer: this is a sponsored post however words and scenarios are all my own and are very personal.