“Life is hard”
“I don’t know enough about fashion”
“I like way too many things”
“I look pregnant in this outfit”
“Why do I always compare myself, my lifestyle, my body, my blog to others?”
“I hate pretentiousness”
“I don’t have enough clothes, I don’t have enough anything”
“I am broke and its not even month end”
“Her everything is better than mine”
These are just a few of the thoughts that run through my mind daily and now that I have written them, they are actually quite sad because non of them are positive. I thought I was a positive person and I am when it comes to being positive for other people and other people’s things but am rather negative about my own life, my own blog, my own body and why? COMPARISON!
I find myself constantly comparing everything, it has become a nasty habit that has taken me hostage and is making me its bitch! But I am working on changing that because I have found myself, I know who I am, I am a real person and I actually do like myself, I sometimes make people laugh, I do silly things, I am a little awkward at times, I obsess over things all the time but that’s fine because that is me.
What is not me is a size 30, I am not a perfectly-put-together-24/7 fashionista, I will never be an assertive person and I will never be flush towards the end of the month because I love shopping too much (shopping before saving, terrible I know)
If I know myself, if I know who I am then why do I compare myself to someone/something I know I can’t/won’t be, sometimes I compare to something I wouldn’t even want to be, just because.
Comparison is evil and nobody wants evil on their shoulders, you want the pretty angel who says nice things that make you feel good, who helps make the right choices for you, your life and your destiny.
I also know that from positive thinking and attitude comes a positive life!
So from now on my thoughts will go like this
“Life is hard but I love life”
“Fashion is always evolving so nobody can ever really know EVERYTHING about fashion”
“I am so lucky to like so many things”
“I got a tummy but so what?”
“I haven’t compared myself to anyone in days”
“I still hate pretentiousness”
“I have enough clothes to get by, but I would like more”
“I am broke but I have nice things to show for it”
“Nobodies anything is better than anyone else’s”
Life is a work in progress.