I feel like crap! I have a headache, I feel hungry but also not hungry, I feel so tired and lazy and all I want to do is get into my bed and sleep this day away.
It is, of course, my own fault that I feel like this because after weeks of eating well and regular exercise I fell off the bandwagon because it was my birthday, but I didn’t stop at one slice of birthday cake and I didn’t let my birthday last one day, I celebrated a birthday week, ate like there was no tomorrow and did absolutely NO exercise.
I could kick myself because I know how good I was feeling and how well I was doing and I just gave all that progress up for bad food that has made me feel so sick.
I promised myself that I wouldn’t let this happen when I started the challenge, I wanted old habits behind me and I wanted to be a health & fitness freak, I wanted to be that annoying person who constantly tells everybody about their progress and show off the healthy lunch I ate, and I was that person for so long until the old me just crept back into my mind and took over totally!
As I write this I could cry because I just feel so awful and am filled with anger, disappointment and regret. To say I am feeling sorry for myself is an understatement but I am trying to get up, I am looking online for inspiration, I am re-looking at all the transformation pictures I saved when I started the challenge and despite feeling so crap, I am trying to psych myself up to get back on track.
I know that I can do this, I have no doubt in my strength, I just HAVE to get my mind right, I need to stay focused on my goals and I need to remember this feeling every time I want to eat all the junk food so that I won’t even go there because it really is not worth it.
It is the beginning of a new week and there is no better time to start something, so this week I will start all over again and I will begin working on my mind set.
Hopefully I have learnt my lesson, hopefully there will be no more posts like this in the future and hopefully I can get rid of those old habits for good!