So yesterday was the official start of the Well I am 100 day challenge (which you can still enter by the way) and I am sooo excited to be a part of it because not only is there great support, the best meal plans and amazing prizes to be won but I am so ready for to be a health and fitness freak – I want to buy cool gym clothes and get a kick ass pair of trainers, I want to feel good and I need to be fit.
Anyway, on to my day one feedback – it was easy and hard because I didn’t battle at all with the eating, in fact, I made such a delish lunch and dinner that I actually wondered to myself why I haven’t been eating that way everyday, but then the exercise is another story.
This was my chain of thoughts yesterday about the exercise I had planned to do
10:00 I can’t wait to go home and workout.
11:00 I am feeling so tired I could just fall asleep at my desk, hopefully after my exercise tonight I will feel better tomorrow.
12:00 I must work off that food I ate, even though it is healthy, I must lose weight, I need to win this!
13:00 I am going to kill that exercise tonight and it is gonna be amazing.
14:00 Can this day just hurry up so I can get my workout on.
15:00 Just an hour and a half till I feel the burn (I didn’t know how bad the burn would actually be)
16:30 Home time, the first thing I am doing when I get home is changing and getting right down to exercise business
17:30 Yeah, let’s do this
17:31 Oh my gosh, I can’t do this
17:32 I want to give up
17:33 I am dying
17:34 Somebody help me, I really am dying
17:35 I am going to vomit
17:36 I need a break so I am just going to lie on my cold floor and reassess this horrible decision
17:37 Back up, huffing and puffing but I will do this
17:38 Nope, I can’t do this
17:39 I HATE THIS!!!!!!!
17:40 Another break
17:41 I am going to eat less so that I don’t have to work so hard
17:42 How do people do this???????
17:43 I can’t even think I am breathing so hard and dying at the same time
17:44 Another break
17:45 Start, stop, start, stop, start, stop
17:46 Lots of swear words
17:47 How can I be so unfit?
17:48 Getting angry with fiancé for telling me to just push because I am pushing
17:49 Again, I will rather not eat than do this
17:50 It burns, I can’t move
17:51 I am done, I will do better tomorrow
That was a pretty weak start and I was disappointed in myself because I kept thinking that it will do nothing and that I do need to push myself but the fact is, I haven’t done any form of exercise for a verrrry long time so I can’t expect miracles. It is going to be hard, it is going to burn, I am going to want to throw in the towel (probably every time I do my workouts) but it will get easier, I think the burn will grow on me and I will NEVER throw in the towel!
Today I am less hard on myself because my heart was beating faster and I was sweating which is usually something that never happens so already I have achieved something. I feel excited again for my workout tonight and I know it is probably going to kill me AGAIN but that’s okay because I feel more alive now than ever!